This past week I received the mother of all rejections. The Queen Mary.
It was the first rejection, in a long time, that really bummed me out.
Well, to be honest it wasn't because I happen to think this agent is so fabulous that I couldn't live without him/her. I mean, agents are just people. They put their pants on one leg at a time just like the rest of us.
No. The reason I was so bummed is because the rejection told me just how close I am. With words like "loved the voice" and "enjoyed the humor" and "you clearly have promise" how could I not get excited?
Then.....there was the final word: NO.
My heart sank. What? Why? What happened?
For two days I dwelt on the negative. I felt sorry for myself. I vowed that I was done with the process of getting published.
But thanks to my awesome crit group and my amazing online writing community I was reminded of the positive remarks in the email. Love. Enjoy. Potential. Those are some pretty strong words. With the help of my wonderful support system I realized that I'm close. Really close.
So, I could let the rejection get me down. I could stop writing. I could give up right now and be done with all of it.
What a waste that would be!
Instead I choose to focus on the positive. I remind myself that if someone who was passing could say such positive things, it really is just a matter of time before the right person sees my potential and says the one word I've been waiting to hear.
So, how close are you? Have you had feedback that makes you scream with excitement? Or cry with despair? What makes you press forward?